Gaining Control by Understanding My Envelope

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By Bruce Campbell 

Note: This article is adapted from a chapter in Recovery from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome: One Person's Story.

When I was first ill with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, I often felt like a powerless victim, but the idea of the Energy Envelope enabled me to regain control of my life. Accepting the limits imposed by CFS (living within my Energy Envelope) enabled me to take charge again and to expand my limits gradually.

My first months with CFS were filled with frustration, as I slowly recognized that CFS had imposed tight limits on me. Adding to my frustration, being active even a little outside those limits resulted in a disproportionate increase in symptoms. For example, I found that I could walk for 15 minutes most days without intensifying symptoms, but 25 minutes might send me to bed for an hour.

I took a step in a more positive direction when I remembered the distinction between acute and chronic illness. Acute or short-term illnesses are temporary problems, conditions in which the diagnosis and treatment are clear and the outcome is usually predictable and positive. Such illnesses can be cured by medical help or are self-limiting. Chronic illness is different. Instead of interrupting life briefly, it imposes long-term limits and forces patients to adjust their lives to it. Because of limits and uncertainty, there is often a high level of frustration and a sense of helplessness.

Like many other patients, I learned that using an "acute illness" approach to CFS didn't work. If I tried to ignore my body and just push through, my symptoms were intensified greatly. I began to ask myself whether I might gain some control if I could find and honor my limits. I hoped that by being less active, I could gain some control of my symptoms.
 

The Energy Envelope

The idea that gave my efforts direction was that of the Energy Envelope, which I found in an article in the CFIDS Chronicle. The article suggested that CFS patients have limited energy, but that they can gain some control by keeping the energy they expend within the limits of their available energy. The authors called this "living inside the energy envelope."

For some time, I used this idea in a general way and found it very helpful. I would ask myself whether doing something would take me "outside the envelope" or whether I was living "inside the envelope." I used this idea in combination with monthly evaluations using our Rating Scale. My self-ratings changed only a few points each month at best, suggesting that any improvement would be slow. But rating myself regularly provided a useful reminder. It showed me how far from normal I was and reinforced the idea that I could be active only a few hours a day without increasing my symptoms.
 

Developing a Detailed Understanding

The concept of the energy envelope was useful, because it was a constant reminder of new limits. After a while, however, I wanted to go beyond this general idea and understand my limits in detail. This change was triggered by some fellow patients pointing out to me that mental activity and stress could be just as draining as physical activity. So I began to ask myself a series of questions in order to get a fix on my limits and needs in different areas of my life: How much mental activity (reading or computer work, for example) could I do in a day? How much in a single session? What are the stressors in my life? How much sleep do I need each night? How much daytime rest? How long can I drive safely? How long can I stand at one time without intensifying my symptoms? How far can I walk safely and at what speed?

I was also concerned to find my limits in other areas. In addition to those just mentioned, I included activity limits (which I defined as how long I could do various activities like housework, shopping and spending time with people), food sensitivities, sensitivity to light and noise, and emotions.

Over time, I ended up with a list of over a dozen items that I listed for myself on a form called "My Energy Envelope." It took me at least a year to develop this more detailed understanding, but I felt rewarded all along the way, because every limit I defined helped me gain more control. I filled out the form once every several months and found it a helpful way to assess how I was doing in some detail. Here's a sample of my energy envelope from the third year of my illness.

Later I included an additional section in the form, a place where I summarized my abilities and limits, noted my greatest vulnerabilities and set goals for myself. This section was a helpful summary of my current situation and also suggested where work might give the biggest payoff in reduction of symptoms. (A printable version of the Energy Envelope form is available through our Logs, Forms and Worksheets page.)

I learned a lot from studying my envelope. One surprising realization was that my limits were more restrictive in some areas than in others. During a period of time in which I thought that overall I was at about 60% of my pre-illness level of functioning, I could do only about 30% as much exercise.

I found it very helpful to share my envelope definition with family and close friends. Getting outsiders' views of my situation helped me to be more realistic in my self-assessment and also helped others to understand me better.
 

Learning Through Experiments

One way I found my envelope was by trying experiments and keeping records. Experimentation was such an important part of my approach that I devote all of another article to it. For now, let me give a few examples of experiments I tried and the lessons I learned.

By walking at different times of day, I discovered that exercising in the afternoon was much less likely to lead to higher symptoms than exercising in the morning. That observation led to the realization that time of day was crucial: when I did something could be as important as how much. When I tried extending my walks, I observed that I sometimes felt fine during the walk but experienced strong symptoms afterwards or had to take a nap later in the day. That experience helped me to realize that the effects of activity might be delayed, so to understand my limits I had to be attentive to how I felt later as well as during and right after an activity. I also observed that sometimes the effects of activity were cumulative, so that I might feel tired after several days of exercise at a certain level.
 

Expanding the Envelope

Even though my envelope expanded very slowly overall, I found some ways I could expand my activity level immediately. I just suggested one: by being attentive to time of day. But I found several others by observing my experience and by listening to other patients.

A student in one of our first groups reported taught me the connection between stress and symptoms. She said that at her birthday party a year earlier, she had felt stressed by trying to play the good hostess, moving about and worrying whether everyone was having a good time. The result was that she was tired and cranky after an hour. At a party held during the course, she decided to imagine herself as a queen who was observing the situation from a throne. Freed from the self-imposed expectation that she should make sure everyone enjoyed themselves, she found herself with good energy for more than two hours. By relaxing, she reduced her worry and extended her energy. Her experience taught me that if I could respond in a relaxed manner to stressful situations, I could preserve energy that might otherwise be dissipated in tension and anxiety. The net result would be more energy for productive use, effectively an expansion in my energy envelope.

The same student also taught me that how we rest can affect the amount of energy available to us. I learned from her that taking a short rest break to re-charge batteries can expand the number of productive hours in the day. At the beginning of the course, she was resting six hours during the day, taking two naps of three hours each. She decided to break up her day into one- and two-hour blocks, taking a 10 to 15 minute rest during each block. Using this strategy, she reduced her total rest time by an hour and a half a day after two months. Four months later she was resting three hours a day, half as much as before the course. By taking frequent short rests, she added three hours of productive time to her day, without increasing her symptoms.

The use of planned rests was one of the most powerful tools I found for controlling symptoms. I thought it was so useful that I've written a whole article on it. I'd like to describe here just one way I used the idea, to expand my envelope for travel. I found that if I interrupted my driving every two hours for a ten to fifteen rest, I arrived fresher at my destination and had a lower symptom level throughout my trip. Another way that rest helped me increase my envelope was to take a brief rest as soon as my symptoms became more intense. That strategy enabled me to avoid a long period of "downtime," so that by giving in to my symptoms I reduced my total rest time.

Another way I expanded my activity level without increasing my symptoms was through using routine. In observing myself, I noticed that novelty was a source of stress. It takes more energy to respond to a new situation than it does to something familiar. I found that I could save energy by making my life predictable. I developed a scheduled of activity and rest, reducing the surprises and emotional shocks in my life, thereby reducing my stress.

Overall, the idea of the energy envelope was very useful. By emphasizing the idea of limits, it helped me to accept that I had restrictions. Also, the idea motivated me to understand my limits in detail. By finding and learning how to honor my limits, I found a powerful tool to help me control my symptoms.